Well, fuck. It’s finally happened. After almost 2 long years it has come back in full force to torment me.
Oh good lord. Why the fuck does depression have to affect literally EVERY SINGLE PART OF YOUR BODY? If I stub my goddamn toe, it’s just my toe that hurts, but when my synapses are fucked up, it decides to just drag down the rest of my body with it. It’s such BULLSHIT.
It’s also like a goddamn wave.. Constantly taunting me.. It comes.. And goes.. And comes.. And goes.. And comes, then just decides to stay WAAAAY longer than before, and completely messes with me, and fucks up all of my perceptions.
It’s obnoxious, unpredictable, and I really wish it would just sod off already so I can get on with things.
The other sinister part of depression is its ability to turn things that would otherwise give you joy into painful, grueling, and tedious experiences. It completely clouds my vision, and turns me into someone else. Someone who I don’t want to be.
It also changes the way I look at other people. It crushes every single hope I ever get, and just leaves doubt, and self pity.
And as of me writing this, I have absolutely no one to talk to because I’m up at 12 am like a goddamn lunatic. So. Yeah! This is also why I haven’t been too active on my lil’ old blog.. Fucking depression. It’s not even like anything has even triggered it. It just waltzes in whenever it goddamn pleases, and just tries to ruin everything.
It is my greatest enemy, and I will fight it to my dying breath. I have no choice.
A comprehensive guide on how to be immediately ignored by me
Step 1) Have one of these stupid, fucking obnoxious blog names.
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If you see any of my pictures anywhere other than my blog, it is an imposter. I think I may have an old thread on 7chan, but that’s about it.. I do not have an Xtube, Xhamster, Okcupid , or any other account where I put up pictures of myself.
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God, I know right? Some of these guys are denser than a collapsed star.
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